Last update: Augusts 24, 2015
Your body is the temple of nature and the divine spirit. Keep it healthy; respect it; study it; grant him the rights of him.
Henry F. Amiel
Nowadays there is still talk of machismo and easy prejudices, with no hope of overcoming them. This leads us to catalog the people around us without first listening to and respecting their point of view. And this is precisely the attitude towards sexuality and, in particular, towards women. And what we are telling you is the story of a girl who has always been the subject of criticism and prejudice.
“I have never given too much importance to my sex life, especially when it comes to first times and their value. It started with no bad experiences, but with pleasant surprises. Learn new sensations, discover everything you can share with another human being and just enjoy the moment. In full relaxation.
I never stopped long to think about whether it was the right time or not. I like to think that that's where the magic of my first time lies and the fact that it was positive. It just happened. I saw it as a simple thing, but I felt that around me they did not perceive it in the same way, but with prejudices and taboos.
My first sexual experiences were free. I didn't feel I was doing anything wrong. Maybe sex, the union between two people, had something negative?
I grew up and this aspect of my life didn't matter too much to me. Maybe it's because I've never been in a stable relationship. This allowed me to fully enjoy the experience without too many thoughts and emotional loads. I liked how I considered everything to do with sex, I felt comfortable. Free.
I met different partners every time, always authentic, in a simple way, without complications. Obviously, if you are wondering if I was careful in terms of protection, the answer is yes. It must be said that all these people were full of love, affection and almost flawless. In my environment, the people who loved me looked at me as a person with a free character, or rather, libertine.
They thought that for me sex was a mechanical act, without feelings. They invited me to be more responsible for my actions and, at the same time, filled me with prejudices about my sexual relationships.
What did I think of myself?
About this, I'll be honest: I did what my heart told me. If I felt comfortable and free, why not? Without too many thoughts and always responsibly I did what I wanted with my body and my person, of course.
I enjoyed the moment, my person and my partner. I was thinking of nothing else.
Life has given me a precious gift, to feel the union with another person who wanted to be next to me in that moment and share love together. Any love we talked about.
An intimate love, I placed my trust in the human being who shared with me that moment, that instant. I asked myself this question: "why betray the trust of someone who has seen you totally exposed, naked?". Then, I realized that not all people think the same way.
And after so many years, after having accepted myself and having learned to distinguish myself from my environment, I realized that living the world and my life with an open mind, especially in terms of sexuality, made me an "easy" person in the eyes of others. My friends and people I trusted said that knowing this made me more desirable.
I fully lived this new category and experience in which I found myself involved without wanting to, but after a short time I suffered again from the prejudices of people who did not understand me. Those who did not stop to evaluate me with freedom and a certain human empathy.
How did I behave?
For my part, I was trying to understand people who didn't have the courage to admit that they wanted to fully experience the sexual relationship. In the course of my experience, there has never been a lack of respect, there have never been any strange, dangerous or abusive situations. Never. Simply, the partner in question and I agreed to live the moment and the union, the pleasure.
I was and am a well educated person with a great life experience. A good person, with a heart full of unconditional love and with a great desire to enjoy life. A human and respectful person.
The problem? That all my "gifts" seemed hidden behind "seeming" an easy person.
I have come to the conclusion that people think and talk too much. And even worse, he speaks without knowing or without knowing the truth. I stopped changing, tired of comments and prejudices, until I met the man of my life. I told him everything, I was sincere to the end. And without being like me, but simply another human being, that man understood me.
It made me realize that behaving or being a certain way didn't make me an easy person. Quite the opposite. He understood that I was in control of my sex life and that I knew myself well. She knew what my limits were and that's why she understood how I could behave in a free and balanced way.
So I gave myself permission to continue living my sexuality to the fullest and to explore my body together with a person who loved me. I did what my heart told me, I silenced all prejudices and learned to respect myself. I understand that no one has the right to categorize or question others.
Everyone is responsible for the way and the purpose for which he lives his life. Everyone is master of their emotions and their body. Don't waste your time dancing to the rhythm of those who are full of doubts and fears. They are those people who will do nothing but tell you "I told you so" or "you can't do this". What is the final message of these people? That we don't deserve to be ourselves.
A woman enjoys the certainty of caressing a body whose secrets she knows and whose preferences are suggested to her by her own body.
Colette
