Last update: Augusts 07, 2015
Hello,
I am writing to tell you that I am leaving you. I guess you already know I've met someone. That someone is me. I want to give myself a chance because I deserve it.
I stayed by your side longer than I should and you have to acknowledge this. Your mouth was full of promises you never kept. I've been waiting for too many years for those hugs and caresses that never came.
Why did you treat me like this? We had a wonderful and promising future ahead of us. What is it that you are so afraid of? Of me. Of your desires, your hopes and your will to live.
I would have bet your soul smiled at you when you thought of me.
The sunrises together, the travels and the opportunities have slipped through our fingers. Our time together is over and now there is nothing but empty left. So I decided to leave on my own, to be responsible for my life. I'm in the world for something, certainly not to see my life pass by.
You taught me that, remember? There was a time when rainy afternoons made you think of me, you smiled and made a thousand plans. On Mondays, when you got up to study or go to work, you said to me “With you until the end of the world”. And I believed it, what a fool!
Here, if there is a memory of the two of us that I want to keep, it is summer: your face glowed with desire! During the first week of summer, you burned with passion, you never left me alone, and our relationship was immensely romantic.
But then ... You left me to cry. You forgot everything we had lived together and started to watch life go by, day after day. What endless boredom!
Even when the new year began, I felt great. Every corner of our house was filled with projects of common life. Unfortunately, even this beautiful moment had its days numbered, but in my heart I always hoped that desire would reappear in you and that we would begin to devour each other with kisses.
Why I'm leaving
Because I've lived in this prison for too long. After all the sufferings and hardships of our life together, something finally clicked in my head; so, I reset and start smiling again. One day I got up and decided to make myself happy.
You and I have lived together long enough. I just wish you could have shared some of your time with me to talk about the great things I would have liked to do. But time passed and we were never able to carry out these projects.
Do you know what it is? I am not a collectible toy. Life is meant to be lived, to overcome obstacles and to make dreams come true. We are not in the world to complain and to stand by and watch the opportunities recede.
I, your strength and your dreams have always stood by you, we have never betrayed you. But it is evident that we are incompatible: we live by action and you by words.
Every day, every month, every year we shouted to you: “We are here! Come and find us when you wake up! " But you were always tired, you never wanted to do anything. This is how the hope that kept me by your side began to fade.
I didn't give up, but I really think I was wrong when I thought you were going to hold my hand forever. I fell, I suffered and I cried. And all to be close to you.
But my patience is now over. From today I start to live and smile as if there were no tomorrow. I don't want to sadden you, but I assure you it's the best thing for both of us.
Quite simply, this situation made me feel small and insignificant and I really think it's time to GROW. Promise me you'll take flight ... I give you the best reason why you should spread your wings and fly away: YOU! You are the best reason for life to be lived!
Signed: the joy of living.
