Last update: December 15, 2015
You were one of those always cheerful people and I was one of those who like to bask in the happiness that others have to give. This is the most important reason why that "forever" I told you will truly be forever, even if you are no longer there.
I am a person who speaks little, but when I have the courage to say something, I am aware of all that my words entail.
To you who came into my life and helped me make sense of it ... I will hug you forever, even if you are gone or if I have to go.
“Each person who passes through our life is unique. He always leaves a little of himself and takes a little of us.
There will be those who have taken a lot, but there will never be those who have left nothing.
This is the clear proof that two souls never meet by chance ”.
(Jorge Luis Borges)
You took a part of me away
One of the consequences of offering you my unconditional support is that, now that you are gone, I want to write to you.
I needed to let you know that I grew up as a person and that you helped me in this: you know, when building the future with another person, learning to be without them means growing up.
And I, in addition to having learned to exist without you, I realized something else: not all distances are absences, not all silences are oblivion. To be honest, I have matured, but I haven't learned to say goodbye.
I categorically refuse to believe that saying goodbye makes me more mature. You have taken a part of me away, which makes me not want to completely detach myself from someone who is part of my essence, even if we treat each other as two strangers.
Memories together with you are worth so much that they deserve to be close to you
If there's one thing I'm sure of, it's that we are made of stories, people and memories that have marked us. We need all this to get to ourselves: we relive the moments that made us happy and made us smile, we look for those who hurt us and we are touched internally.
"When I shake the box of memories, in the end it is the memories that shake me ..."
(Andres Castuera-Micher)
When I told you I would be with you forever, I did it knowing that our happy memories deserved my presence.. It doesn't matter what happened between the two of us: memories are worth so much to me, I would go all the way to the end of the world if I needed me.
I'm not saying it still occupies the same place in my heart. Words without deeds are in vain and the word is always eternity, greatness, constancy and sacrifice.
Saying "forever" was like telling you that nothing else mattered, not even the fact that you weren't there anymore. To say "forever" was to understand what it meant to have known you and not forget you.
In the heart there is always room to keep good memories
The greatness of always is clear proof that the heart can be as large as we want.
I know that when you passed in my life you made my heart bigger, and I also know that I didn't let it shrink when you left.
The same thing happened to me with other people, in the course of my life: over the years, I realized that in the heart there is always room to keep good memories and that we have the power to prioritize them.
"There is a very special place in my heart, reserved for the people who stood by me during my worst moments, and who loved me even when I didn't deserve it."
(Anonymous)
There were times when that "forever" was hard to respect, but then I remembered that the things that make us great are the ones that require more effort.
Over time, I realized that having someone who loves us in a complex time is everything. Just as it is all to meet a person who makes our soul vibrate, even if only for once. That's why there are people like you, that my heart doesn't forget because it doesn't want to.
Now I know that to respect that "forever" I promised you it is not necessary effort, but gratitude, forgiveness and the awareness of who I was and who I am.
